i finally saw raising victor vargas. P kept saying, "this is totally citrus." as in, the kids (particularly the little sister) in this film are totally reminiscent of the kids at the school where he teaches (and i teach art afterschool). one of the things i liked best about the film was the closeness and honesty of the cinematography. none of the actors seemed to be wearing makeup, and you could see all the little bumps and imperfections on peoples' skin. for me, this is a huge thing in this era of digitally perfected onscreen humanoids. nearly every female in this movie had a moustache. as a latina of jewish heritage, i myself have always been a chick with a 'stache and it was very refreshing to see other latin women and girls rockin' the facial hair onscreen for once. you know?
for those not in the know, a wacom tablet allows you to draw graphics, lines, drawings, etc. directly onto a tablet or drawing surface that connects directly to the computer. whatever you draw shows up directly on the screen of your image/graphics program, just like typing or moving a mouse.
anyway, today P said some of my drawings look amateurish. i said that that's just a style i'm using on purpose. he suggested i take some drawing classes. i may be a little rusty from not drawing every day as i once did back in art school, but as if!
one of the side benefits of doing this community arts project at SH elementary school is that the art teacher gave me an old wacom tablet they weren't using anymore. i'd been wanting one forever! it's not new, but it works just fine.
i suddenly feel like about 80% of the people i grew up with have kids.
i don't know why this is such a weird feeling. i'm 28. looking at things objectively, it's a lot less weird than when i was 19 and everyone i knew from back home was married.
i stayed on the internet too long again tonight. will i ever get my act together?
i'm going to sleep.
wait a minute. i had a very productive day in general. so, there.
i spend too much time lurking around reading, browsing, and envying other people's creativity and not enough time manifesting and cultivating my own. that will change!!
i have a lot of ideas, not just for art, but other things i need and want to do with my life. i waste a lot of time. i CAN stop doing that. I WILL STOP DOING THAT. maybe writing it down will help. especially writing it down on the internet. SDER :roll: *
i had a really good conversation with shirley last night after the workshop at HCI. after the huge bummer (what a dorky word) of what happened this past week with the afterschool program, and feeling crushed and failure-ish and disappointed in myself, and crying in traffic and everything else, it was really reassuring. i think i got some take-home points from the experience and have learned from it, but at the same time, a lot of it had to do with a very faulty system and stuff beyond my control. commiserating is so empowering sometimes. can i say any more DORKY things in this blog entry?
there was a really nice talk and atalaya study today at the meeting. we had the special talk, and then an atalaya study about marriage. P and i have been getting along really well lately, for the most part. we have ups and downs of course, but i'm really happy with my man. :)
then back at home, i whipped together some very yummy stir-fried noodles with tofu, green onions, watercress, and bean sprouts. i stir-fried it with sesame oil, soy sauce, crushed red pepper, ginger, some tandoori seasoning, and the seasoning and oil packets from a box of semi-fake thai hot and sour noodle soup. i know that sounds like seasoning overkill, but it was really good, dammit!
also, i have to learn NOT TO EDIT MYSELF CONSTANTLY! the ironic thing was that i just deleted part of that sentence once to rewrite it "better." ha ha
anyway, right now i'm working on finishing a grant for a client; we will be putting it all together and making copies this evening so that we're not frantically rushing to do it tomorrow before it's due at 4pm tomorrow. i am practicing being on time for things. i will get better at this! it's not impossible!
this has been an affirmation-filled post. hope y'all don't mind.
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